This is a short story from my book “The (not so) Bright Side).” It is written in the style of the old AOL chat service, as well as AIM. Fair warning before reading: there are A LOT of grammatical errors. But that’s done purposely. I wanted to capture the charm of a time when AOL ruled the “dating scene” in the young community. Mind you I wrote this story 3 years ago; AIM was still in use but slowly fading in the background of Facebook. Should you choose to read on I hope you enjoy yourself.
ineedahero: really, i mean tht much to u? dudewheresmymind: of course. ur mad special, like i care a ton about u. like OH SHIT dude ineedahero: awww ineedahero: im blushing odee rite now dudewheresmymind: so wen am i gonna see u? dudewheremymind: i mean we been talkin now fer like 2 months ineedahero: i no i noe SOOOWIE i jus been busy wit skool n my moms being a bitch n u noe how it is dudewheresmymind: she still givin u shit for tht B+ u got in global? damn im glad im pullin A's then ineedahero: lol ineedahero: i noe shes just...rawr!!! idk....i gotta gtf outta hea dudewheresmymind: so come chill wit me n lemme take ur mind off things ineedahero: and keep it in the gutter huh? dudewheresmymind: sure why not ineedahero: lol u so crazy dudewheresmymind: yea pero u like it ineedahero: no..... ineedahero: i love it ineedahero: like i love u dudewheresmymind: seriously? u lov me? ineedahero: sure why not lol dudewheresmymind: lol dudwheresmymind: but seriously..... dudeheresmymind: u...love me? ineedahero: i do. i been wantin to tell u for a lil while now but...idk...i really do dudewheresmymind: i love u too. have now for a while ineedahero: why didnt u say anything dudewheresmymind: i wanted to say it in person. tht first day, so u noe jus how i felt dudewheresmymind: and since we r talkin bout being together i knew u wouldnt run off ineedahero: i would never do tht to u baby. i love u dudewheresmymind: i love u too ineedahero: damn. i g2g. moms callin fo me. must be dinnertime n then bullshit activity nite dudewheresmymind: oh yea i forgot bout tht. its tuesday. ineedahero: yup. so since i wont be back on ill ttyt? dudewheresmymind: of coure ineedahero: k ineedahero: bye ineedahero: my love :) dudewheresmymind: bye my love :) i love u ineedahero: love u too babe muah ineedahero: signed off at 6:27 pm 2 WEEKS LATER.... dudewheresmymind: so the teacher said he made a mistake on ur grade? did he at least fix it? ineedahero: yea tht fucker lol he told me it was tht bitch jodie who was gonna be gettin the B+ n since our last names r the same (she stole mine) he got us mixed up dudewheresmymind: damn dudewheresmymind: well at least ur gettin the A+ u deserve cuz ur so smart n all tht fun stuff ineedahero: lol ineedahero: so now tht the moms is happy i can go out and shit dudewheresmymind: so tht means we can finally chill? ineedahero: duh silly lol dudewheresmymind: ok so i noe tmrw after skool is out cuz u got sum shit wit ur fam....n friday ur goin to ur lil brothers play for his skool.....wat about this saturday? i dnt remember u sayin ur busy plus i noe im not. all weekend im free really ineedahero: i cnt believe u remembered all tht. wow. my ex never cud recall my plans for the week ineedahero: lol dudewheresmymind: thts cuz ima better man then he is dudewheresmymind: plus i work n dnt mooch off the ppl i love ineedahero: lol well thts gd. btw, arent u gonna get in trouble for talkin to me while at work? ineedahero: i cnt have u losin ur job for me ineedahero: n have u mooch off me lol dudewheresmymind: lol na dnt worry bout it. my supervisor is mad laid back dudewheresmymind: in fact tht niggas on facebook rite now talkin to sum spanish shortie he met a couple weeks ago ineedahero: can u believ thts how we met dudewheresmymind: better then myspace lol ineedahero: or tht bullshit localhookupz.com shit lol dudewheresmymind: oh yo lemme tell u my cuzo is datin sum chick he met from tht site. they been together now for a lil while. havent met her tho but he says shes finer then a mofo. i asked if u me n him n his girl could double but took it back since u n me havent actually met yet ineedahero: well now u can ask him to double dudewheresmymind: ill be sure to do tht tonite wen i see him ineedahero: hes back in the city already? dudewheresmymind: actually he came back last week i jus havent talked to him cuz the company keeps askin him to do doubles. im like damn yo he jus got back from vaca leave the man alone ineedahero: lol word ineedahero: but hes aite, like do u noe how hes doin? dudewheresmymind: ya hes aite. i mean jus mad tight tht hes already being asked to work so hard is all.... dudewheresmymind: damn, i gotta go on my tour now. u gonna be up lata? ineedahero: na ill prob be sleepin. besides u take like 2 hrs to do tht thing lol dudewheresmymind: well dang the building does have 26 floors i gotta check out needahero: and i bet u look sexy doin every single one of them lol muah dudewheresmymind: dude...i blushing lol ineedahero: lol u so cute...msg me if u wanna see if im up but most likely i wont be dudewheresmymind: i mite as well say gdnite here then ineedahero: tru dudewheresmymind: so...... dudewheresmymind: gd nite dudewheresmymind: my love dudewheresmymind: sweet dreams ineedahero: have a safe shift baby. i love u muah dudewheresmymind: love u too muah baby dudewheresmymind: signed off at 8:09 pm ANOTHER 2 WEEKS LATER..... dudwheresmymind: thats an incredibly stupid thing to say ineedahero: why u say tht? dudewheresmymind: u dnt noe wen we r meeting yet cuz ur "always busy"? dude u tell me everyday tht ur schedule looks pretty “blah” all the time n u wanna do suttin to free urself from the mindless garbage tht is the same routine. yet here we r like 4 months later n we still havent met in person but ur still tellin me u love me like weve known each other for yrs ineedahero: but i do love u dudewheresmymind: STOP SAYIN THAT DAMN YOU ineedahero: ok, plz, calm down?...plz...? MINUTES PASS... ineedahero: r u still there? dudewheresmymind: yup ineedahero: k ineedahero: im sry dudewheresmymind: dnt apologize ineedahero: why? dudewheresmymind: cuz u shouldnt have to. we shoulda been met up. i noe ur schedule back n forth n always tell u use w.e open spot u have n see me jus this one time, but noooooooo u use it to go n do other bs. its like im not even on ur mind yet u have the audacity to sit there n say "oh baby i love u ur always on my mind n i cnt live without u" n all tht other bullshit ineedahero: ....idk wat to say dudewheresmymnd: idk why, ur not the one on my side feeling like their being dicked around ineedahero: im not dicking u around. my feelings for u r real. its just...idk dudewheresmymind: wat dnt u noe? ineedahero: idk thts the thing.idk wtf is wrong wit me ineedahero: u havent pressured me or nuttin like tht n u been sittin here waitin for me for w.e reason n here i am sayin sry for dumb shit dudewheresmymind: so get ur mind rite ineedahero: it is...idk wats WRONG wit me..grrrrr! dudewheresmymind: well ima be honest. im tired of sittin around waitin for u. u noe, this one chick on facebook asked me out last week. noe wat i did? ineedahero: no....wat u do? dudewheresmymind: i told her i was madly in love wit u n nobody can change tht ineedahero: ...wow...really? dudewheresmymind: bet ur ass i did ineedahero: damn dudewheresmymind: she told me she really wants me, like ode. for sum reason, n said shes gonna sit there n wait for me ineedahero: really? dudewheresmymind: yup. she noes all about u. i told her about u wen i met her for starbucks. she was flabbergasted at how long ive been patient wit u. she said she cud never do nuttin like tht cuz she loves being there n intimate n sayin all this love shit in person n not over the net. she actually met me rite away, like we talked for 2 days online then the next day i saw her in the afternoon for a few hrs n had coffee n conversation. REAL conversation ineedahero: wow COUPLE MINUTES PASSED... dudewheresmymind: is tht all u gotta say after wat i just told u, wow? thts it? ineedahero: wat am i suppose to say? dudewheresmymind: well since u got nuttin to do tmrw u shoulda said, ok u n me need to chill so i can redeem myself cuz i owe it to u n i love u n i dnt wanna lose u...or suttin like tht ineedahero: idk... dudewheresmymind: wow ineedahero: wat? dudewheresmymind: nuttin. i g2g dudewheresmymind: signed off at 8:12 pm 3 DAYS LATER.... ineedahero: u dnt look like ur picture. i mean i wasnt disappointed but u dnt look like ur pics dudewheresmymind: u do ineedahero: really? dudewheresmymind: yup ineedahero: is tht a bad thing? dudewheresmyind: did i say it was? ineedahero: no?....but u didnt say it was a good thing either dudewheresmmind: well wen we started talkin a thousand yrs ago i told u how spectacular ur eyes were n ur smile was amazing. and since im sayin tht u look like ur pics, dont u think its a GOOD thing? inedahero: i guess... dudewheresmymind: were u happy wit wat u saw? i mean u said u werent disappointed but u also said i was sexy wen we first met. do u still feel tht way? ineedahero: a lil bit dudewheresmymind: just a lil? ineedahero: yea dudewheresmymind: so wat happens now? ineedahero: wat u mean? dudewheresmymind: well since u ended up meeting me on the fly the other day i wasnt really lookin or feelin my best n i wanna at least get a haircut n look better. r we seeing each other again? ineedahero: idk... dudewheresmymind: why dnt u noe? ineedahero: idk FEW MINUTES PASSED..... dudewheresmymind: do u still love me? ineedahero: yes, but.... dudewheresmymind: dnt fuckin say "idk" again ineedahero: lol ineedahero: how u knew i was gonna say tht? dudewheresmymind: thats a retorical question ineedahero: its a wat..? stop using big words wit me LOL u noe i hate tht dudewheresmymind: idk... ineedahero: lol now its ur turn? wat dnt u noe? dudewheresmymind: idk why i wasted so much time wit u. ur obviously not interested anymore, since u keep sayin "idk" and wen i asked if u still loved me u said "yes, but..." so tht can only mean i wasted my time. i blame u ineedahero: WAT? WHY U BLAMING ME FOR? dudewheresmymind: if u had met up wit me months ago we wouldnt be having this conversation rite now. we'd either be in love, or noe if we were just friends. but u let mad time pass like an idiot instead of seeing me yet u had the balls to tell me day in and day out tht u love me. ineedahero: oh... dudewheresmymind: wanna noe the worst thing about all this? ineedahero:" no...wats the worst thing? dudewheresmymind: we never spoke on the fone. not once this whole time ineedahero: really? dudewheresmymind: dude, r u seriously saying "really?" how the fuck dnt u remember tht u and me havent talked on the fone?! r u that stupid or suttin? ineedahero: NOOOOOOO i just... dudewheresmymind: wat, ur gonna say idk again arent u? ineedahero: lol yea COUPLE MINUTES PASSED..... dudewheresmymind: u said u werent talkin to nobody else while talkin wit me except a couple dudes who were gay. were u lying to me? ineedahero: no i wasnt lying dudewheresmymind: so wats been the biggest issue wit us having to wait so long to meet? ineedahero: idk i think i was scared dudewheresmyind: of wat, me? ineedahero: yea dudewheresmymind: elaborate, please, cuz i never did shit to u to make u feel scared...or did i? ineedahero: no u didnt ineedahero: i was scared cuz i was fallin HARD for u n even tho i was in love wit u i had the mistakes i made wit my ex runnin thru my head n idk i got freaked out i noe u neva woulda hurt me i jus have this thing in my head tht i dnt wanna trust so easily n i trusted u so fast i had to take a step back dudewheresmymind: so u were stringing me along this whole time then, u never really were planning on meeting me. u just wanted me to be like a safezone or suttin to see if u could trust another person again. now tht u have u dnt need me anymore ineedahero: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ineedahero: thts not it at all dudewheresmymind: well u certainly r givin me tht impression ineedahero: sry dudewheresmymind: u dnt need to apologize anymore ineedahero: why? dudewheresmymind: cuz ive obviously been wasting my time. u dnt wanna see me anymore n now tht i noe u dnt really wanna trust guys tht means u dnt wanna be wit me. u shoulda jus said this from the very beginning instead of flirting wit me n then tellin me u love me, n all tht shit. im done waiting for u ineedahero: ....sry dudewheresmymind: u dnt need to be. im not ur problem anymore ineedahero: u never were a problem to me dudewheresmymind: w.e dudewheresmymind: ima go call tht other chick. at least SHE expressed interest in me TO MY FACE instead of shying away wen i try to hold her hand ineedahero: so u held tht bitches hand? dudewheresmymind: no dumbass cnt u tell sarcasm wen u see it? ineedahero: dnt call me a dumbass i jus thought u did cuz thts the impression u gave me wen u said tht but w.e go be wit her since u obviously dnt care about me no more dudewheresmymind: HOW THE FUCK CAN U EVEN SAY THT WEN I BEEN SITTIN HERE FIGHTING FOR U THESE LAST FEW MONTHS! MONTHS, DAMNIT, NOT DAYS OR WEEKS. FUCKING MONTHS. U SELFISH BITCH. HOW DARE U ACCUSE ME OF NOT LOVIN U WEN U CANT EVEN LOOK ME IN THE FACE WEN IM TALKIN TO U?! MINUTES PASS..... ineedahero: im sry dudewheresmymind: like i said im not ur problem no more. bye dudewheresmymind: signed off 12:47 am 6 MONTHS PASS.... thesehazeleyes: hey dudewheresmymind: who the hell is this? thesehazeleyes: its me, ineedahero MINUTES PASS.... thesehazeleyes: u still there...? dudewheresmymind: wat do u want? thesehazeleyes: how r u? dudewheresmymind: fine thesehazeleyes: thats good thesehazeleyes: and ur mom how is she? dudewheresmymind: wtf r u doin? thesehazeleyes: wat? dudewheresmymind: why r u messaging me after all this time? dudewheresmymind: or r u gonna say idk again like a thouand times? thesehazeleyes: LOL wow u remembered that? dudewheresmymind: i never forgot it dudewheresmymind: dnt take tht as a good thing either thesehazeleyes: oh dudewheresmymind: so wtf do u want? thesehazeleyes: i missed u dudewheresmymind: come again? thesehazeleyes: lol thesehazeleyes: I....MISSED.....YOU dudewheresmymind: why? dudewheresmymind: and dnt say idk cuz thats not gonna fuckin cut it rite now thesehazeleyes: i made a mistake. i miss u. i want u back dudewheresmymind: u never had me to begin wit thesehazeleyes: u loved me, and i loved u dudewheresmymind: thats just it, LOVED, wit an E-D at the end. ive moved on. its been too long. im not gonna sit around and wait for u. clearly, since i never sent u a msg since we last spoke thesehazeleyes: ur dating tht chick? dudewheresmymind: no thesehazeleyes: oh dudewheresmymind: we're engaged thesehazeleyes: r u serious...ur so young! dudewheresmymind: shes done so much for me, n proved her love to me in a way i never imagined. ive given myself completely to her. so much in fact tht we r havin a baby too thesehazeleyes: WOW dudewheresmymind: yup MINUTES PASS.... thesehazeleyes: im happy for u dudewheresmymind: thx. dudewheesmymind: can u do me a favor? thesehazeleyes: sure dudewheresmymind: dont ever message me again thesehazeleyes: oh. ok. um, sure. can i ask why tho? dudewheresmymind: if u do all the feelings for u mite come flooding back n i dnt want tht. plus, u dnt deserve to have the rite to talk to me thesehazeleyes: seems fair dudewheresmmind: damn rite it is thesehazeleyes: ok. so ill leave u alone. dudewheresmymind: good. bye dudewhersmymind: signed off 9:08 pm