I get it now. All this time asking myself “what is it about me…” and I finally received the answer I’ve needed.
I’m too affectionate. Not off the bat, but first date it’s present. Even when it’s wanted/appreciated/consented to.
Starved for it, and didn’t even realize I was damaging everything by dishing it. I need to keep my hands to myself. Start using my words.
“I’m interested in you.”
But what does that even mean if the absence of affection is present?